14 weeks and counting

by the way.................it's a boy!

yesterday.........seems so far away

I thought January 29th was going to be one of the worst days of my life. That is how it started. I woke up at 4:45 a.m. and realized I needed to rush to the bathroom. The Sunday before I had started spotting and this continued throughout the week. I went to the dr. and was assured everything was fine. It did not put me at ease, but I trusted that she was right. This was not the case. I won't go into details...but there was a lot of blood. I was convinced I was having a miscarriage. It was the only possible explanation. Chris took me to the ER and I was taken back to have an ultrasound soon after. I told myself I was not going to look at the screen. The thought of looking at a lifeless baby still makes me want to lose my mind. So I focused on Chris and his expressions while watching. A few minutes into the sonogram I saw him look away....and not look back.

And then............there was a heartbeat...............

I thought it was a long shot (assuming it was my heartbeat I was hearing) but I asked the tech if that was my baby's heartbeat....she said yes. I immediately burst into tears and asked if it was a strong one....she said yes.

A few minutes after I was taken back to my room the dr. came in to examine me. A few seconds later he got a phone call from the radiologist who reviewed my ultrasound. Turns out I was not having a miscarriage. I was diagnosed with a subchoroinic hemorrhage.

Even after all that blood the hemorrhage is still there. It is still measuring at 4 cm. They guess before I started bleeding it was at 8 cm.

We still have a ways to go and are so blessed to have such an amazing family and wonderful concerned friends. My sister-in-law Jessica was coincidentally diagnosed with the same condition a few days before me. I have a feeling it's going to be a long ride for the two of us!

http://miscarriage.about.com/od/amimiscarrying/p/subchorionic.htm

Oh Suzanna......

Suz's last night out as a single lady....wish I could have made it longer than I did! But this baby is draining the life right out of me! Suzanne is probably the most genuine person I know! She always has such a positive attitude and she has an amazing personality! I don't know Evan all that well, but I do know he is a one lucky guy! Girls don't come better than Suzanne! She is going to make a beautiful bride! See you Saturday!

Emotions run high!

Normally I am not a huge fan of American Idol...well I do watch the auditions! Last night while watching American Idol I cried 3 times at some of the personal triumph stories! But the thing is...I only watched from 7 - 730 because I fell asleep! Who knew American Idol would be such a tear jerker? Move over Steel Magnolia!

hmmmmm.........

Our 12 week appointment is today! End of this week and we are done with the first trimester! I never thought I would see the day! Previously pregnant people say the exhaustion, nausea and overall disgust for food will subside soon...............It better or this is going to be a lonely child with no brothers or sisters!

Soooooooooooo pretty!

Saturday morning Chris and I took the dogs on a stroll! It was so peaceful and the frost on the trees was so beautiful! It's Monday morning and it looks the same outside.....so now I am just annoyed...where is the flipping sun?

Is he expecting...or am I?